Fleeting and Fastly Fading Friendships

I have been having "Pains" for as far back as I can remember, and I do know that upon every visit to the doctor, my pain level was 8-10. But over time and of being overlooked and dropped through the cracks when the Home Invader moved in and slammed me, I soon found out QUICK who was my real friends, and I learned the painful truth about Fleeting, and Fastly Fading Friends. When the pain became so overbearing to the point, I was going days without sleep, because whenever I would lay down, night or day, the pain would tap me in the back and remind me that it was still there, still active, and still awake.

Not really knowing what was going on with me, (go figure) and even got to the point, I felt like I was losing my mind, I couldn't remember things, the PAIN was/had taken over. When I finally mustered up enough strength to try to find out what was going on, all roads were leading to the Diagnosis of Fibromyalgia. I slowly began to tell friends, and as I told them, they slowly started to flee and fade away fastly.

Overtime, some of my friends, who I thought were really good close friends just quit calling, quit replying to my texts, my emails, my phone calls, well reluctantly, I quit too. It had become too much for me to keep up, because by now, it is like the water dams have broken and not only am I dealing with pain, I am dealing with a entourage of symptoms that has literally consumed me and exaperated all my STRENGTH.

There is a friend who has not faltered nor failed me. He has been there to wipe away the tears I cry at night, He is there to speak LIFE, HOPE and HEALING into my heart, my mind, my body, my spirit. He is always there. At first, for a brief moment, I took for granted that I didn't deserve His presence, His mercy, His grace, because surely, I did something to bring this on, and my Friend reminded me that His grace is sufficient and that His strength is made perfect in my weakness. So these days, when I have no one to rely on, no one to talk to... no one that "really" understands who I am and what I am dealing with, this ONE FRIEND, yet remains faithful and unfailing. I AM so grateful to have a friend like the Lord, a Friend who will never leave you, never forsake you, a friend who will be with me always, even to the very end.

I just believe that even in the confusion of all this pain, that on the last day of this life of mine, HE will be there holding me, and welcoming me into His eternal home, I see we embracing each other as friends, yet in love with each other, with a story in my eyes that simply said, "I kept the faith, I fought a good fight, had it hard, had to walk this road many times alone, clouded from my tears, but I kept the faith. Family turned on me, friends walked away without an understanding, but Jesus, Lord Jesus I kept the faith, then for one quick moment, I close my eyes just to reopen them in the New Jerusalem.
Jesus is a friend who has never, will never fail.